There goes the story of a guy...

tiring day

2010-01-14T02:08:00.000+08:00

Here i am again,just got home.Went out with baby today..the same everyday routine,go get a pack of ciggies and then our lepak-ing sessions anywhere nearest stop-by coffee shop...and have our meals together...after which we went to hougang park enjoying the cold wind and have our routine chit chats....then we went straight home...those ppl out there who has my facebook added to urs as friends...PLS,Pls,,pls...do peep at my facebook for the very last time alright....coz i'm gonna delete my acct soon...then u can just refer to me here alright...moving on to blogger now just blogger alright...any notifications just leave it on my tagboard okay...dats it for now...we'll update again..........nights......zzzzzzzz.....

weeks past

2010-01-12T01:47:00.001+08:00

Weeks past,i've not been updating much...so sorry guys,been busy with life...anyway this past weeks has been a great good and bad times for me...As for my relationship,it's just normal you know having ups and downs soo have to be understanding abit...but still me and her is having a great quality time together in fact we're doing good...always side by side and never apart,only the part when night falls and we have to separate to our own respective homes then we have to be apart lah..haha and also not missing the part where me,baby and her gffs had our discreet nights out at st james last wednesday...although RnB enclosure is not a place for me,but yeah i'm trying to get influence with the beat and tracks now haha...but i really did enjoy the night with the girls and beloved baby...soo when's our next discreet meetups again people???i heard zouk's gonna be next,can't wait..haha it's late already,going to bed now...nytez till then will update again....

P.S:sorry peeps!got no pics at the moment,will upload soon alright...

a fresh start...

2009-12-11T01:00:00.008+08:00

Hey there everyone...It's been awhile since i last updated my blog...Life's full of ups and downs...but still i'm doing great...trying to keep it up...well,after the months of suffering of my past lost...finally i've found someone to settle down with..soo,currently i'm attached to Siti Nur Alysha Zara...u people should meet her one day alright...soo right now most of the time i'll be spending my days alysha...and yar,after all the months past of searching...i finally got a job at Marche vivocity...alhamdullilah,syukurlah kepada tuhan...soo can't wait to start my new job now haha...anyway,this few days been going through alot of quarelling,misunderstanding and sorts of stuff with my beloved alysha...i dunnow whether it's pur bad periodor what i'm not sure abt it...but dun worry baby...i promise,i'm gonna make our relationship work and will not let you down at all...i love you so much baby...guess,till here for now alright will update again next time okay...baby i'm sorry hope u'll forgive me...

Great Weekend

2008-08-19T08:50:00.002+08:00

Been so tiring this few days...Had a long and great weekend,from friday to tuesday i'm out of camp..so great..and yeah,yesterday when out to meet someone hehe...a very cute and adorable someone..was suppose to meet her at jurong east library but i went to the wrong place which is the jurong west library haha...didn't remember that jurong west has a library too...so went back to jurong east and meet her...coz that i'm late,so i have to treat her for dinner haha..we have our dinner at KFC...after that,we went to IMM sit at the garden plaza at the top of IMM...chit chat there till the rain starts falling that's when we decide to go home...sent her to jurong east interchange soon after she board her bus...then i went straight home taking the mrt...so that's my story haha...she really made my day yesterday..and i really owe her one...hope to go out with her again soon..haha so that's all for today we'll update again soon...and yar there's a slight problem with my usb port so can't bring up any pics...so sorry peeps!!

2008-08-10T12:53:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since i last updated my blog.sorry,my comp was down at that period of time that's the reason why i'm in silence for quite some time...now that i'm back again,as per normal leading my daily life focusing on trainings ahead.As for myself,i'm always fine right here in the grace of god...well,got nothing much to say today...but not forgetting i wanna wish every each and single citizens of singapore a Happy National Day...may peace be with us and our country always...

2007-04-27T04:46:00.000+08:00

Heyy there....
Stop for a moment and calm your thoughts...Let go of your anxieties and look around you...what do you see?You see a world filled with beauty...You see a life filled with possibilities...You see dreams being born,being nurtured and being fulfilled...Yes,there are challenges...Yes,there is sorrow...Yes,there is violence and hatred...But,more than these...there is LOVE,there is GOODNESS and there is JOY...The future is uncertain.And that means there's no limit as to how beautiful and joyful you can make it...Yet what you have right now.And right now is completely as it should be,it is your time to live...Thing of what a precious thing your life is and how truly blessed you are to be experiencing it,right now...And right now,any anxiety you may have about the future is only an illusion...Let it go...Let it fade away as the beauty and perfection of right now wash over you...The best thing you can do for the future is to live with everything you have in the present....Love you my dear...i'll always be here,right here next to you..if you needed my help or guidance...as long as my heart still beats,and i'm capable of moving every single parts of my body.....i'll try to help you with all my might....whenever you need me...can't sleep well tonight...harap2 yana cepat pulih ok...you're a tough girl my dear...be and stay strong as always ok...if there's anything you need,you can call me i'll try to help you get it ok...don't move too much and if can..it'll be better if you stay at home...but i know..that's really not gonna happen.(hehehehe)In that condition...don't be far away from home ok...stay around your area...sorry takde pape nak kasi yana on the 26/04/07 if only we're attached...dah 1yr kita yana..hehe ape nak buat..tuhan dah menentukan terpaksalah telan jua...sikit hari pasal tersalah date tu,sorry ehh yana..excited sangat...oklar,i think i'm taking a nap now..got work tomorrow...take care yana...remember my words...i know you can't but try,be happy okay...just give me a call if you need me...ingat msg budget2.....oklar,go now...baiee......

2007-04-21T14:16:00.000+08:00

yeah,here i am again...sorry didn't update this few days...kinda lazy arrh hehe...hrm,bored at home now...going out later at 3pm...hrm..wanna go get some burgers...hehehe at bedok...da lama tak makan burger..kempunan pulak...and to aida i'f u're reading...wanna wish u a HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!! sorrie..got nothing to give u as presents aida....juz afford to give u a wish..hope u're okie aitez....semoga tuhan panjangkan umur kau yerr....erm..okie...i think i have to go now...nanti lambat pulak...take care everyone...baiieee....

to the someone...
i'm sorry..about today...
i'm so..so...sorry about today...
i know u're mad at me...but pls,pls,pls......
please forgive me.......

2007-04-13T11:44:00.000+08:00

heyya...hrm...to zsa and adi..thanks for the msg yesterday...i didn't know u all treated me so well...hehe thanks dude n sis...got work today...YES!!!! at last i 'm going back to work today...hahaha boring sey duduk rumah...nak pergi pasar malam kat bedok tu...nak makan BURGER RAMLY...hehe temankan ehh yana...hehehe kita kan sekarang putera..haha awak jadi bodyguard kita..hehehe personal bodyguard...kerje secara ikhlas..takde gaji...hur2..btw...hrm,dah lama tak dengar cerita orang2 kat luar tu...senyap ajer...APA KHABAR SEMUA???harap2 sihat wal'afiat yer...hehe and yana...take care of yourself okie...i dunno what's happening rite now..but i'll try to calm down myself ok dun worry dear...huk..huk..huk..my buku reader digest tu..dah tkder sey...for april nye..but takpe ade dua buku this month dapat hehe bole baca yang lagi satu...baiklar sampai disini sajalah...tangan saya dapat menari-nari dangdut di atas keyboard ni...kawan2 semua sampaikan salam saya pada yang tersayang yer...bye....

2007-04-12T17:46:00.000+08:00

Haiz...been bored this few days...don't know why...hrm,still feeling down abit...i'm trying to cure myself...from this sickness i have...can't take it anymore...so sick...sakit kepala......haiz..what's going on with all the people out there...crazy,mad,selfish or pretending innocent...gosh..what a life..with no one around...pathetic isn't it...what to do...no one cares..no one cares about me..my feelings..my loneliness...hrm..but aniwae its okie..i'm fine,its a part of life...i need to go through...well,as for now...i'm okay,doing well..masih sihat wal'afiat...ijust now i went to downtown east..tot wanna fetch her..she at her friends chalet...the rain was heavy today..i mean just now...so i had to run from the bus stop all the way to downtown...i waited for her at downtown east resort..but haha wrong place she's not there she's at aloha resort.. so from there no choice i had to walk through the heavy downpour..and ohh..i'm all soak aarrggghhh...shit...hehehe then when i reached there..i walked around finding the unit of their chalet..on the way walking..i received this call from someone..saying she's not going out coz she's sleeping hrm..okie..so i tried calling her,after a few times she called me back...hehe den bebual nye bebual at last tak kesampaian...hehe then i went back to the main road walking through that heavy downpour again...kekeke basah kuyup aku..nari dah lama tak main hujan lah katakan...then i took a cab straight home...sampai rumah mandi..then here i am in front of this comp again..haha kesian dia.kalau bole dia berkata..agaknye dia kata"ehk aku penat tau dari semalam aku belum dapat tido hehehe kau tak penat ke didi"hehe den i will answer "arrgghh..diam kau..."haha so here i am again..waiting for someone still waiting....hope she'll be back soon...yeah..take care everyone aitez..gotta go..bubbyezz....

2007-04-12T01:51:00.000+08:00

heyy peeps!!!so bored at home...got nothing to do....can't sleep yet...my eye's still fresh now...coz i'm waiting for someone to be home...hrm..what took her so long???ermm...did she enjoy herself there??she neva seems like msging me...i think she did enjoy herself there...hehehe still waiting for her to reach home...lambatnyer...dah nak pukul 2 pagi...belum balik2 lagi...hope u'll be home soon dear...okie2 gotta go just bought that reader digest for this month APRIL!!! hehe okay chowz dulu pegi baca buku...bbuubbyyeezzz.....and ggooddd nnniitteezzz...

2007-04-11T15:47:00.000+08:00

life..life...LIFE...haiz...life has been boring this past weeks...so boring...lambat pulak surat NS sampai...haiz...cepat lah datang lebih rela aku duduk dalam sana..dari kat luar ni...keje pun tak seberapa...teruk jugak IKEA ni....kasi keje macam gini..schedule macam apa...1 week 3 hari keje..kau..pathetic sey...mcdonald pun at least hari2 dapat keje...pikir aku pergi holiday per 4 hari off...duduk rumah macam budak gila..keluar jadi macam anak hantu..baguslar tu...bila nak bertemu kekasih lama ehk...nari dia takde..pergi chalet..haiz..boringnye aku.ingat nak fetch her from work...then..she's going for chalet..hrm.maybe next time..hehehe semalam pegi apa tu..sheesha ke,cishar ke,cigar or cigarette..arrgghh wateva lar...okay lar not bad..have fun with friends..tapi not so happening,coz not full attendance lar yesterday..but overall...wonderful lar.haha ingat nak ajak yana pegi tgk movie cerita The Reaping nari...hrm..tak kesampaian keke..and so,as for me,life still goes on like normal..maybe not going so smoothly..but still i tried forcing myself to go through this smoothly...i feel so broken up...and i give up...i just wanna tell you so you know..haiz...as days past...here i go,scream my lungs out and try to get to you...you are my only one...i let go,
there's just no one who gets me like you do..you are my only,my only one.......

i've decided to be happy,no matter how harsh the world is...
and i'm gonna stay optimistic,coz there's no use getting upset..
it won't get me nowhere...i've lost everything...i've lost all hopes...
i've lost those promises...and finally i've lost you...i'm just a failure
and right now...every second,minute,hours,days and weeks of my life...
i'm still here..right here....hating every single piece of my life now which i have left....

P.S:do you dream of me at night?

2007-04-10T03:47:00.000+08:00

Haiz..it's been lonely nowadays..without you..i just can't make it...oh dear...i really miz ur touch,ur kiz,ur hands,ur hugs,ur care towards me..and also the arguments we had back then...it's gone just like that...so easily...why...i can't bearly take it...yes u did see me laughing happily most of the time...but no..it was all fake...i was deeply hurt inside...i was thinking about you all the time...hoping..waiting for the day when u will say i miss u so much...i wanna be with u again...and be like our old days...happily,smiling through my tears of joyness..happiness...i dunnoe what else to say...but,i just love you so much dear...u're everything to me...i wanted u back so badly...but i noe u won't come back...haiz...what can i do...hrm..takpela it's late now..need to rest nitez..bubbye

2007-04-04T00:18:00.000+08:00

sweet christina...sweet raihana....but wateva it is,life stil goes on as in even though its hard and sad for me but still i have to go...u forced me to...its okay..u're still the sweet raihana i knew...but abit changes have occur recently....juz hope that you'll never do this again...i've been missing you since that day...and honestly i've been jealous to see you and syah..the way u say that u're just friends....i've given you enough freedom...thats all i can do for you...but you still don't think about how hurt i am...giving you that opportunity to have freedom back then...yes i admit...i always put that smile on my face...even though how painful it is to be hurt...i was taught by my mum...and i can see that u're happy..very happy...but all the pain is inside me...the words u use to call me..bodoh..selenge...dats why i still kept quiet never do anything even though sumone's hurting me or insulting me...coz i was taught to be like that....i always listen to you...maybe not all the time..but most of the time i did listen to you....whenever u're angry..i'll be quiet...never say a word...coz i'm scared of you...i just dunnoe how did u change ur feelings so fast...look up ahead..see who's there??whose been out there waiting for you all the time...maybe i was wrong not all the time but most of the time...u always say...i want someone like this...i want u to become like this...i tried my very best to make u happy...to make u feel better....i dun mind u lying to me about anything...coz i noe u well...u can't lie to me...but maybe some things u can get away with...but even though when u lied...did i scolded you...i just remind you next time dun lie okay..just tell me the truth...than after a few mins we're smiling to each other again..i miss ur innocent eyes yana...i'm saying facts yana...for all those out dere...who always say "buat aper nak dgr kata org ke aper...orang ade tolong bile susah..."ok fine!!!sekarang aku susah aku sedih siapa yang ada...siapa yang tolong aku???jawablar korang semua just tag kat blog aku..siapa yang tolong aku sekarang...harapan aku cuma bergantung pada tuhan saja...solat hari2 berdoa minta pertolongan dari dia...tu saja yang aku mampu lakukan....susah betul hidup begini....tanpa dia...tanpa kawan...haiz...kurniakan lah doaku ya allah...tolong lah aku...

2007-04-03T14:08:00.000+08:00

Haiz,its hard to be alone..my life now so pathetic...have been thinking about her everyday single day...tuhan..kenapa belum kau kabulkan doa ku lagi...aku bingung..day after day..i kept thinking what is wrong..and what have i done wrong..but why coudn't i still find the answer...it's like she's torturing me so badly...mengapa sayang...beginikah akhirnya...there's nothing i can do now...it's too late..i've tried my very best to change you...thats all i can do for you...but if u're still happy out there.what can i do...it's hard for me rite now..this few days...i juz can't make it...haiz..i juz hope u wud understand...hope that u wud noe me better...everyday u see or hear me cry...pls...tuhanku...kembalikan dia ke pangkal jlnnye ya allah...tolonga aku...haiz..aku rind dia..aku rindu kasih sayang yang dia telah berikan padaku ya allah..tolonglah aku...kembalikan dia padaku...haiz..bored at home...going off to work soon...will update again byes..

2007-04-03T01:28:00.000+08:00

Tonight,i'm writing this post for someone whom i've loved all this months..but to bad she's gone now...Dear,it was great to have letting me watch a movie with you yesterday..even though it doesn't go smoothly...yana..when i looked into ur eyes just yesterday...the time pat staircase ur block when u say nicely go home ok takmu nangis...u're just soo sweet dear...i understand those words u say"i dun love you anymore"i can see that u really don't...i just dunno what change you but its not ur fault..i tried all my best,my very best...to take good care of you..but it still won't work...i'm sorry dear...like i said i'm just a failure...how can u forget how hard i tried to be with you...how hard i tried to go through those troubles i'm facing one after another...and in the end u left me out here alone...hehe dun worry...i dunnoe whether u will come back to me...for sure,hope u will la...but maybe i already noe the answer..u won't....so thats why i'm here tonight writing these...to say a final goodbye to the relationship we've built togede back then....its gone..so easily...like its so cheap...now,u're happy with someone else...ohh syah..u're so lucky to have met her...u'll feel the happiness and sweetness that u've never had the taste of it before...haiz..i luv u so much yana...i'll always pray for your happiness...just hope one day u will think back time on how heartbreaking and painful it is to leave someone innocent....with an unexplained answer....and for you sheikh just dun bother my life juz take care of yourself and dun ever leave a fucking msg on my tagboard...

p.s:for those guys out there...pls.pls...PLSSS,stop falling in lurve or rushing into falling in lurve with someone..even knowing that the're really in lurve with someone....thanks...

2007-04-02T01:16:00.000+08:00

Setelah sekian lama ku bersabar terhadap dirimu...inikah balasanmu terhadap ku....kaulah insan yang mempunyai segalanya bagi aku..tapi apakan daya kau lebih gembira menyintai orang lain dari aku...haiz...rasa kecewa ade..rasa sedih ade..rasa gembira pun ade...yelar..mungkin dgn cara ini dia akan dapat hidup bergembira...aku dilontar ke tepi begitu sahaja....apalah nasib ini...tak tahu apa lagi nak dikata...aku rasa amat sepi kebelakangan ni...aku berubah sangat...daripada bising menjadi bisu...setiap kali aku melihat dia..aku mencari tempat untuk menitiskan airmata ini....sampai bila kau ingin terus begini...membiarkan aku kesepian...tanpa arah tujuan...off day duduk rumah...keluar rumah pun setakat nak pergi kerje....dimana kau berada?haiz...tak tahu apa lagi nak ku katakan...kembalilah padaku sayang...hidup seperti dahulu....

2007-04-01T03:10:00.000+08:00

Life sucks rite now...feeling down...empty,lonely sometimes happy..but dunno whats the reason....just felling soo lonely...and really down...recently,have been quiet for some time..still finding my mistakes...but why...why can't i find it??how did she change her mind so quickly...what is the real reason behind this breakup thingy...is true that u really wanna find more friends...or u've fallen deep into someone...why do u do that...knowing that i'm loving u soo much dear...and this past days...u've not been missing me at all??who have u been thinking of?u wanna end our relationship just like that...u've hurt me so much..and i've been tolerating all that...den suddenly u threw me away..and here i am...now..walking on a narrow road withunknown people..strangers...u noe i dun have much friends...but u have...in ur words their friends to u..but in theirs,u're their admirer..just waiting for u to accept them..dun u noe how delightful they are knowing that we broke up??why out of a sudden..all of them sms u calling u for out daily...why does all this comes out so sudden....why dear..why did u do this?why did u end all this...i've been saving up money for us...and also for u when i'm going to NS later on...but now u're gone...am i too nice for you??thats what people have been saying...i dun scold u coz u told me not to,i dun contact females coz u'll be angry if i do...i keep up on my behaviour coz u'll be upset if i don't,i've been listening to you coz thats what u want me to do and lastly,i've been loving you..coz this is what i've been sincere for to be with you....but,look..what happens when i became the source of a pain...u just hurt me alot but..now i'm forgiving you dear...i'll always pray for you...hope u get to the right path...gd nite...

2007-03-26T13:44:00.000+08:00

WHY DO ALL GOOD THINGS COME TO AN END...

I'ts hard to live ur life alone out here when u're really in love with someone...i just don't get it why...WHY...she did this to me....she knew i love her so badly...but why she still do this....i've been quiet,tolerance..towards her behaviour...all this while,i didn't say a single word or what...like u meet me..but u're quiet..and i'm beside u but despite talking to me...u're happily sms other people...and u noe how hard it is to tolerate ur behaviour...u just dunnoe how much u've hurt me...den out of a sudden..u'll be really mad at me...even accompanying u at the busstop for u to board the bus makes u so angry...u ask me to go home....i walk away from u looking down...u now how sad i am?1 hr before u said "i love you" then just 5 mins after u'll say "i don't love you" which one is it...and on the 11 month of ours i wish u at 12 o'clock sharp and u're answer is i wanna break up...what is that supposed to mean??But thats what u've been craving for right..i've given u now...be happy dear..be happy...i'm jealous to see ur friends..how hard and tight they hold on to each other...when u say that...i'm speechless..i'm not a psycho or what,i'm not a freak...so be happy,maybe u're just way too good for me...all i wanna say is i love u so much sweetie...just think back at the old times...thats al i wanna say...bye sayang..

2007-02-26T16:11:00.000+08:00

yesterday,was an exciting day for me..haha went to sentosa and had lots of fun..with my sweetheart..hrm,then today is also a happy day for me no need to tell..she noes herself...keke going t meet her later after work..hrm take care everyone..and to daya..hope u're doing ur exams well..wish u goodluck aitez...bye everyone..

2007-02-13T23:10:00.000+08:00

Hello...hrm,had a pleasant day today fetch my sweetie after school just now at 4 then accompany zsa chit chat at school while waiting for adi to arrived to fetched her home...but instead of going home...they go and had their dinner...haha wanted to follow but too bad sweetie don't want to...haha but nevermind we then head to somewhere..so interesting hahaha..after a long time..hehe she was soo sweet love her so much muacks dear...kekekehrm what a day,sooo tired after that we went home...thanks for the day honey...i hope u had start revision by now hehe...study hard okay 2 more papers to go dear u can do it...wish u all the best honey luv ya muacks...hrm..guess that's all for today will update again next time see ya....bubbyes...

2007-02-11T16:29:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...finally,i'm back sorry for the past days...i did not pay my net bills so it was cut off...hehe but now,its back to normal..so how's everyone doing...i heard many stories about al of you...from my sweetie..hehe keluar sana-sini,share crushes lah...hrm happy ehk...haha ok2 sampai sini jelar ok i've gotta go to work...nak siap2 nie...i'll update again soon see how maybe after work...see ya all ok take care bubbyes...

P.s:plan to go get tickets for the PESTA PERDANA with my sweetie tomorrow...anyone wanna join??

2007-01-07T01:18:00.000+08:00

Haiz...after so long i've not been working,sekarang aku dah mula bekerja semula...but a part time job is so miserable for me...aku perlukan kerje tetap...aku baru dapat gaji sikit pulak tu.gaji aku ni kene bayar duit bill duit kakak sedara hutang duit ez-link kasi ibu dan juga belikan hadiah untuk yang tersayang...Semenjak dulu berhenti kerje dah lama aku tak beri atau belikan dia apape selalu dia yang belikan aku...aku rasa malu sangat tapi sekarang alhamdullilah dah ada kerje dapat aku belikan dia sesuatu...tapi sedihnya aku bila dimarahinya takpelah aku faham dia tak suka orang belikan dia apape...tapi buat sekali ni saja apa salahnya...dah lama aku tak belikan dia apape..sedih aku bila dimarahinya...takpelar aku pun dah janji dengan ibu...lepas ni taklar aku nak gunakan duit2 gaji aku semua cuma untuk bayar duit bill atau apa jer...biarlah dia pegang card atm aku....haiz,sedih nari cam takde mood lah..hrm takpelah lain kali saja aku update.....bye....

2007-01-05T01:47:00.000+08:00

hrm start work today at 10am,yana started at 3pm and we finished work togede at 10.30pm....wanna know what,the good news is that working is fun this few days coz of the school reopens on 3/01/07 its on the past wednesday...there's not much people going to IKEA haha soo good dont have to stanby soo much hotdogs and buns...so slack this few days...but the bad news is that...i was bored at work coz of the school reopens not much coming to IKEA and the whole day 85% of myself was to stand there the whole day doing nothing but just walking around the place and 15% of me was at doing work...so bored but the happy part is that my off is on this coming saturday and haha sweetie is off on saturday too at last dapat kita keluar bersama...yay haha,but can't wait for sunday morning and afternoon the crowd will be crazy again maybe haha half of me says hope so not/and half of me says hope so yes...so both things will be coming on sunday the morning and afternoon part will be busy maybe and that is for myself saying hope so yes and at night maybe it will be quiet again haha and that is for myself hope so not haha those who don't get it nevermind...hehe haizz...tired i'm going to sleep now maybe has been sleeping late this passed few days...oklar everbody slmtz...chowzz duluzzzzzzz yer...bubbyesss

2007-01-03T05:20:00.000+08:00

Aku inginkan kebahagiaan bersamamu sayang....aku akan cuba sedaya upaya untuk berubah sayang...beberapa hari ni kau sangat baik terhadap diriku...tapi disebaliknya yang tersimpan dihatimu tidak dapat ku tahu mungkin ianya dapat ku teka tetapi tetap ku tidak akan tahu jawapannye sayang...setelah semua yang telah berlaku aku rasa amat bersalah terhadap dirimu sayang,aku tahu banyak kesilapan yang telah ku lakukan terhadap dirimu dahulu....hari demi hari...aku cuba sedaya upaya untuk berubah....aku faham...aku tahu apa yang kau mahukan..aku minta maaf kerana tidak dapat melepaskanmu aku amat menyayangi diri kau sayang dan juga kau telah banyak menolong aku dalam hidup sejak aku kenali dirimu dahulu...tak dapat ku bayangkan bagaimana hidup ku ini jikalau tanpa bersamamu sayang....aku rindukan kenangan kita dahulu,masa kita bermesra,masa kita bergembira dan juga masa kita bersama....kau telah buktikan banyak padaku betapa hebatnya cintamu itu...aku mula menyesal sekarang dan aku mula menjadi seperti dahulu semasa kau baru mengenali diriku...aku harap kita dapat bergembira seperti dahulu sayang...setiap kali aku melihat kau senyum,aku rasa malu setelah apa yang aku lakukan terhadap kau...aku ingin meminta maaf sayang terhadap semua kesalahan ku dahulu,maafkanlah aku sayang...aku akan sentiasa membuat kau gembira sayang dan aku akan sentiasa membuat kau tersenyum bila melihat diriku....percayalah sayang...percayalah....ini semua ikhlas sayang daripada aku...aku tidak akan meminta kau apape lagi sayang selain daripada terus menyayangi diriku ini...dan aku tidak akan menyusahkan kau lagi sayang...ingatlah kata2 ku ini sayang semuanya ikhlas dari yang menyayangi dirimu selalu sayang........

zaidi.....

2007-01-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

2006-12-31T18:47:00.000+08:00

Today is Hari Raya Haji...bangun pagi pegi yishun amik adik sedara at 11.00am then balik rumah siap2 and off to grandma house pat Toa Payoh lepas tu pegi Pasir Ris my aunt house ade buat kenduri then lepas kenduri balik terus...Reached home at 6.30pm ingat nak pergi keluar pegi countdown ke pat mana2 and plus dah tgh confirm dgn my kakak sedara nak pergi mana but too bad kesayangan tak dapat ikot sama balik lambat dia nari dgn keluarganya so tkpelar just stay home tonight...Dah bersemangat sekali semua tak jadi hehe tkpelar i understand she's with her family hrm..oklar2 not much to update will update again some day...take care everyone rindu u sayang i boring nari hrm..takpelar oklar2 take care bubbyes....

2006-12-25T22:35:00.000+08:00

I'm getting irritated and sickening with someone now...can't take his thoughts and words just hope that i can talk to him one day and make him realise and understand with the situation i'm having nowif he is ME now maybe i will said all those things to him too!!!DAMN!!!can't take him anymore....

2006-12-13T20:58:00.000+08:00

Yeah had fun today...went to the Yishun polyclinic this morning...Need to ask for my typhoid receipt that i have taken 1 year ago coz the ikea manager ask for it..so went there walk around for awhile buy nasi lemak ate under block haha [SELEKER SIAK] then went to the golden mile complex if i'm not wrong at at beach road...bought 3 pair of jeans today haha..got new jeans to go to work tomorrow...Then after loitering around the complex we went out coz can't take the smell in there,so smelly...so many thailand people in there.Maybe they are the ones giving out that strange smell..After the big walk we went home...haiz,i made a huge mistake today,had gone to the wrong place with someone i felt so bad for myself....haiz...i'm sorry dear pls forgive me i don't mean to hurt you but you hide your feelings totally and i thought that you were happy...but then...it was just a fake...you was smiling outside just to make me happy but inside....the sadness that rised upon you was overcoming...but still,you try to put that smile on your face just to make me feel better...i'm sorry honey...i'm really very sorry...for what i've done...pls forgive me...

2006-12-04T23:58:00.000+08:00

What a lame day today...soo bored..but managed to meet yana for awhile just now...haha...tapi,kebelakangan ni aku risau sangat pasal dier and her job...hrm...it doesn't suits her too...imagine around ikea Tampines area and finish work at 12+am gosh what has she been doing so late till dat hour...and malam2 gitu jalan pat area situ haiz...and its good sebab kalau balik lambat gitu bole claim cab fare..tapiorang2 keje situ perempuan2 pat situ biler die dahbis keje nak balik ade jugak suara perempuan pat situ and perempuan2 tu semua takde ker yang tinggal bedok atau tinggal tampines bole jugak tumpang cab sekali kenape mesti dier kene tumpang dgn kawan dier(zul) dua orang je pulak tu..haiz...hrm,maybe i'm just worried about her too much...i hope she'll be ok out there i hope she knows how to take care of herself....love you dear take care of yourself when i'm not around....

2006-12-04T01:27:00.000+08:00

wow...what a day..so tiring!!!morning woke up then have to learn songs then after finished everything when out at 5.30pm head to tampines afghanistan...went to go jamming with yana's brother and his cousin while yana is at work at IKEA...well...we started at 7pm hrm..not much songs to play just songs from green day-basket case,nirvana-smells like teen spirit,lordi-hard rock hallelujah and also from avenged sevenfold-second heartbeat and M.I.A...haha i'm just glad lots of improvements my drums are getting better haha nice one didi keep it up hehe puji diri sendiri ehk...well...dats all we can do for today haha...i'm just soo happy today haha met sweetie just now fetch her from work i reached there at 10pm but i didn't know that she finished work at 11pm haha but nevermind its okay i waited for her..then when she finished work haha guess what we exchanged snacks haha she gave me currypuff and i gave her donuts haha she like it...hrm sent her home nasib ada last bus then sampai pat bedok duduk sekejap bobal2 then sent her home at the lift and the worst part is balik naik cab sedihnyer hilang $11 aku..keke but nevermind its okay i dun mind...hrm..i'm sleepy rite now i guess i'll go to bed now can't take it anymore ok lar will post agin see ya all bubbyes....

2006-12-02T22:40:00.000+08:00

Such a lame day today for me..Yana had kenduri at her house so we can't meet up today and my parents when out for makan and the worse thing is dat my mum didnt cook at home...i was starving...my stomach was growling all the way haha...lapar nak mampos aku nari..tapi at last aku keluar pegi dapur carik telur dgn maggi hehe goreng telur macam2 aku campur as ingredient hehe..then masak maggi kononnye makan maggi telur hancur tu buat rata2 lar hehe ade jer aku idea2 merepek...dahbis masak semua dah makan pat luar aku gi dapur cuci pinggan semua then aku try buat nescafe maklumlar seumur hidup aku tak pernah buat nescafe kekeke...nescafe ni pulak serbuk dia dah siap punye dlm packet tinggal campur air panas...aku pun amik air panis satu cawan den amik dua packet nescafe tu tabur lar pat dlm air panas ni..aku campur skt dgn susu cair..kacau2 lawa colour dier hehe first time...then masok bilik tgk crite Tenacious D hehe download pat comp punye..kekenak tgk pat wayang tak lepas lar ALAMAK MALUNYE AKU.....then tgk cerita haus pulak aku dgr die bobal jer..aku pun minum lar air nescafe aku buat tdi..bila minum den aku telan jer terus tekak aku rasa masyaallah paitnyer rasa mcm kuali punye bawah tu kerak2 dier ya allah tros gi dapur buang pat tangki taknak aku buat air nescafe lagi keke nak kene belajar lagi dari mak lar..hehehe oklar kawan2 hari pun dah lewat biar saya pegi tido dulu ehk tunggu adiknye si yana ni9 msg lambat pulak dier nak tahu lagu aper ni besok dorang nak main...belum belajar lagi ni haiyo...takpelar aku tido dulu lar..jalan dulu ye kawan2 selamat malam BBAAIIIEEE!!!!!

2006-11-30T22:59:00.000+08:00

Had a great day today..first meet my honey,then got no plans so she call her aunt and asked her where she is...then after hearing that her aunt is on their way to the yishun swimming complex with yana's aunty and cousin...yana decided to go swimming too with them...kesian dah lama tak main air kan..jadi aku pun ikotlar si anak bertuah ni satu..lepas tu...biler dah smpi stu aku tknk mandi dier paksa pulak tu..takpelar sekali-sekala temankan hehe...oklar happy jugak so far...dahbis semua bermandi-manda kekeke...we all went to her aunt place pat yishun wah...sedap aku nari kenyang betul...makan besar pat rumah makcik dier..hehe fisrt time aku makan banyak dgn makcik dier semua...biasalah org dah kata makan jer buat lah muka tembok yer...den pastu balik pat hougang sempat pulak tu berasmara sekejap..dah lama tak bermesra happy dier nari senyum lebar jer...hrm..oklar dats all for today jumpe lagi yer..keke...bbaaiieee...

2006-11-29T20:26:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone...dah lama tak update..hrm...malas lar takde time gitu...btw sekarang ni pun tgh takde mood....haiz...hati ni kenaper lah selalu disakiti dan orang2 ni tak sedar pula yang mereka sedang menyakiti hati seseorang...haiz...but no worries...aku bahagia dengan semuanye,segalanye yang aku terima...walau pun dihiris hati ini tetapi aku tetap gembira dan bersyukur dengan aper yang aku terima...terima kasih segalanya.....aku bersyukur mendapat kau....

2006-10-25T21:35:00.001+08:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA...

Kepada semua yang membaca blog saya...ingin saya ucapkan Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri,maaf zahir dan batin...kalu pernah didi tersilap kata atau terkasar bahasa harap dimaafkan...dan juga harap dihalalkan makan dan minum didi selama hidup di dunia ini...best tak semua jln raya..hehe bestkan..it was nice the first day of raya but it was the worst of all years for me and my family...hehe..tak penah2 beraya naik bus atau taxi..but tis was the first of my lifetime i'm celebrating hari raya waving a cab the whole day..haha tkle tahan one day nye fare dah about $70+ wow dats alot mee goreng aku bole beli banyak kat kedai kopi..haha..but oklar not bad syukur alhamdullilah aku selama beraya...dari org2 yg kurang bernasib baik kan sedih tak dapat beraya..walupun ade yg dapat juga merasakan hari raya..tetapi ade juga yg tak dapat rasa betul2 keindahan di hari raya yg mulia ini..kerana mungkin ada suatu dari yg tersayang mungkin sudah pun pergi...tetapi tak mengapa...kita doakan mereka agar gembira dan bersabar sajalah...hrmm...the first day aku siang dah alek..maklum lar umah yg dapat pergi cuma umah nenek yg sebelah mak dan sebelah bapak saja..yg datuk pula kedua-duanya dah tak ader...jadi sedihlar cuma dapat melawat di kubur mereka sahaja...[p.s:aku tak pergi pun kubur mereka...astarghfirrulah al-azim ape nak jadi dgn kau didi...cuma mak dgn bapak ajer yg pergi melawat..masyaallah dosa nye aku..]lepas jln semua balik rumah..den my sedara yg sebelah my dad semua dtg rumah..tak semua lar actually dlm 6 family je gitu...allah sempitnye rumah aku!!!
den keesokkan hari pulak tak kluar mak aku sakit die demam aper nak buat jadi duduk ajelar dirumah..haizz mendaknye aku..yana pulak kluar dgn makcik die gi collection lar tu...hehehe dah tkde duit ehk sayang...hrmm..aku jugak sedih srg2 pat umah mak dgn bapak sekejap tgk tv skejap tido tu je keje drg pat rumah..aku pun dlm bilik buka speaker kuat2 main game dgr lagu kasi drg bangun hahaha tapi walau mcm mana pun tetap MENDAK JUGAK SIAKZZZ!!!!!main game je satu hari sape tak mendak takde paper nak buat keluar bilik je amik air,makan...tu je keje aku...hehehe...den ni dah mlm nie penat pulak...aku pun tak tahu aper lagi nak cakap tgh nak tunggu si yana balik nie lambat pulak..haizz...budak bertuah nie satu senang hati dier...oklar anti biler2 lau free me update lagik iye...terima kasih pada sesiapa yg sudi membaca ade juga org yg nak layan karenah aku nie...hahaha oklar chowz dulu...tata syamat ali laya...tata